It's a month away and I'm very excited but also apprehensive. Flying alone...never done it! Craziness...my whole life now is one uncharted road after another. It's a bit exhausting. I do ache for those days of being with the one I have always been with....comfortable, easy, fun, and always exciting. But that is not what I am walking in now and here's the question: is this what God wanted? Did He do this, allow this on purpose, or is this the way life is sometimes? Do things just happen...out of our control and the way we respond, is that the test?

Whatever it is I choose to try and keep moving forward. It seems totally impossible some days...in fact I ask God to bring me home quite often. He apparently has other plans... so I will fumble through the maze and desperately grope for the destiny that has been laid before me. Hopefully I will regain the zest for living, for life that I had before and be able to be something that the Lord can use to bring Him glory....because as much as I fight the fact...it's not about me!